Read about this course being offered at the University of Toronto; understanding how people make decisions and nudging them to make certain choices. I smiled like the Grinch when he got the idea of stealing Christmas from Who Town. I have always been fascinated by human behaviour and now a course that divulges more information into the human psyche and how to alter certain behaviour.
The first few classes were great and I was on top of my game, I was at the top of the class, heck I received 95% on my first exams. “Eleanor Einstein Edwards, got a nice ring to it.”
Weekend is over, looking forward to Monday’s lesson. Ok professor, I’m here, opened my note book to a blank page and pen is in hand.
Professor: “This week we will be focusing on experiments…”
Me: “Sounds good.”
Professor: “…and analyzing data.”
Me: “Hmmm, analyzing data, didn’t think we would be doing that.”
Professor: “….C= x2+x+y2= T T=scale of the null….”
Me:“What the heck! I thought the Economics in Behavioural Economics was like the b in comb, silent!”
By the second day,I felt my brain was like the needle in a haystack, lost and never to be found.
I worried and freaked out daily as I thought about the upcoming exam and the experiment assignment where I have to use data analysis. I had no problem in failing the final assignment if it wasn’t for the fact it was worth 40% of the final grade and I really want to pass this course. Failure is not an option for me.
After studying for hours, sleepless nights, stressed out days and having a “discussion” with my husband that ended up with him sleeping on the couch, I completed my assignment.
Of course I spent the next few weeks convincing myself that I did my best and failure is not the end of the world. It was clear that I was lying to myself.
Weeks go by and marks are in. Slowly I check my mark – 95%, What?! I must be reading it wrong. I look again and the 95% is definitely there. I check the comments. All very positive. I am very happy, but still a part of me is waiting for someone to say, “oops or mistake, it should be 59%” That has not happened, so I have to come to terms with the fact that I am smart and did excellent in this course.
I along with so many others are quick to think little of our skills and abilities, at most we aim for average. We are quick to think “we suck” and hesitant to think “we’re amazing or excellent.”